Eventually even the dreams stop. His feeling of meaninglessness goes away. He is now just a kid repeating a life, with no way of knowing that he has done this all before.
If the time traveling version of himself could see him, he would despair at the fact that he is clearly falling backward into oblivion. He is slowly un-existing himself.
But that version of Charlie is gone, and all that’s left is this kid.
Charlie and Billy are kids. They are standing together in a crowded playground.
Billy is talking to Charlie, but Charlie’s attention is focused on a girl a few yards away. Billy notices that Charlie isn't listening and gets his attention.
Billy says, "Its time to go home".
Charlie looks over his shoulder as they walk away, and the park, and the girl fade away.
Lyrics:
There's a life ahead of me, it could look a lot like a desert. An ocean of white I’d glimpse through tearful, wincing sight, or it could be free. There could be a place for me to be. Somewhere far from that dry and boiling sea. But on top there's a tear stained phantom. A vision so faint, but still there. I see the life of a lonely man. I see scenes of never ending loss.
I see a life that's full of cost. It's like waiting for impending regret. It's like our gift to this city's sunset. Something to set over, and one day explode, or so I'm told.
It's like a memory. Like a memory that I'm waiting to live, but I'm happy for now to live this simple life, though my fear is a pendulum hanging scythe. It won't have its way with me. I will laugh it off endlessly.
It'll all be different. Yeah, you'll see. Besides, that distant desert can't be all bad. How can you miss something you never had? But this time, who knows? Who can say? How much could change with three words in one day?
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